I wrote my christmas list last night, teehee. I'm starting my shopping today and I have an urge to put loads of christmas music on my ipod.

Christmas is by far the best time of year! I love it!

I wish I could have her beautiful figure...

"he had just recognized her as someone he knew a long time ago"

Everyone makes little mistakes, little spelling mistakes happen so often, but its ones like those that change the meaning of the sentence completely.

I know you didn't mean it, and I know you care. But in a sick and twisted way I'm glad you're worried it shows me how much you care. You have no idea how much I just wanna wrap my arms around you and tell you everythings okay, and I love you.

I don't know what's wrong with me anymore, sorry for being a bitch again.

4140.) I hate my body; everything about it makes me really insecure

I wish this wasn't true.

I'm now only doing the day's that I can be bothered to do....

I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to my MySpace.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet

I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the television show The O.C.
I like the taste of blood.
I love sleeping.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I was born in a country other than the US.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alchoholic drink every month.

I have/had:
Graduated high school.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Rode every ride at an amusement park
Collected something really stupid.
Helped someone.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been dumped.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over £200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Taken pictures with a webcam.


My hair is naturally the color ___.
Light brown.
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blonde.
Strawberry blonde
Purple


My eyes are ___.
Brown
Blue
Green
Grey
Light brown


My sexual orientation is ___.
Straight.
Gay
Bisexual.


I am a ___.
Male
Female

People sometimes label me as ___, even though I don’t really care.
Slut
Girly
Prude
Nerd
None Really
[Almost everything]

My longest relationship was ___. (including on and off relationships)
1 month or less
2 months
3 months
4 months
5 months
6 months
7 months
8 months
9 months
10 months
11 months
A year+
Two years or more
I’ve never been in a real relationship.

Some of my biggest fears are ___.
Spiders/other insects
Dying
Doctor/dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Holes
Large animals
Small animals
Dying young
Old people

I have ___.
A friend with benefits
A computer in my room
A television in my room
Good grades
My own car
UnMarried parents

day 14 - your earliest memory.

I dont really know what my earliest memory would be, I don't remember much of being a todler, if anything really. I guess what I remember that was early on would be being in reception at school, with painting and thing sand thing. I had the nicest teacher ever and my mum helped out sometimes.

day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

This is easy, South Africa. I think its just the most beautiful place in the world.

day 12 - bullet your whole day.

• Got up
• Got a shower and dressed
• Had breakfast
• Brushed my teeth
• Walked to sixthform
• Had double history
• Had break
• Had geography then english
• Walked home
• Ate lunch and watched inbetweeners
• This

Day 11 was too long..

day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss.

Quite obviously, I have a different view on my first "love" now, then when it was actually happening. Looking back on it now, I was so stupid. I don't even think that he "loved" me. I mean he said he did, but I was 14, immature and naive I guess. I didn't have any experiences of boyfriends, he was my first. I didn't know how to act or feel or anything. I don't suppose you could call it a real relationship, we didn't really talk all that much, a couple of texts a night and saw each other once a week, if that. It went on for about five months, until he ended it. For a 14 year old it was heartbreaking in the moment it happened, two days later i was over him. Seems slightly pathetic now really, if i really did "love" him then it would have taken a lot longer than two days. While I was going out with him I was warned of him, that he was a user, being the naive child I was I didn't really take much notice of this and carried on, looking back on it, he probably did, I was just some girl that he didn't really know that well, we barely knew each other, how could that be love? clearly its not. As for the kiss, it was the same boy that I had my first kiss with. I don't really remember it all that well, we were just walking along I think, and I just looked at him and he kissed me. I think that was it.

If you asked me now, who was my first proper love. I would say my current boyfriend. I remember every little detail of how we got together, our first kiss and the moment he asked me out for real. Having the confidence to actually tell someone that you like them is like putting all your faith and power into them, it's overwhelming. But to have them say to you that they like you back, is the greatest feeling in the world. That was probably one of the happiest moments of my life so far. Our first kiss was after we both admitted that we liked each other, we were watching Love Actually - How fitting! - and we were sitting on the sofa his arms around me, cuddling me and I just turned round to look at him, and we both just glanced into each others eyes, leaned in and there you go, the most perfect kiss. I'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it.

I'm skipping day nine, since I've already done it

day 08 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

I'd say last summer, I'd completed and passed all my GCSEs and didn't reallly have much to worry about. I got to spend lots of time relaxing, with my boyfriend and my family. The only "hard" thing I had to do was work, and that didn't really require much effort.

day 07 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Virgo

Modest and shy - Yes

Meticulous and reliable -Yes

Practical and diligent - Yes

Intelligent and analytical - Analytical yes

Fussy and a worrier - YESYESYES

Overcritical and harsh -Yes

Perfectionist and conservative - I can be

So yeah, I'm just meant to be a Virgo I guess.

day 06 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
I can't promise that they will be interesting...

1. I'm a pessimist
2. I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world, I love him so much
3. I consider myself a very lucky person
4. My family mean so much to be, even if they annoy me sometimes
5. I consider my family to be just my parents and my dogs
6. I have major moodswings on a day-to-day basis
7. I often get headaches
8. I worry far too much about things I probably shouldn't
9. My favourite colours are blue and orange, but I like purple and yellow too
10. I love JLS
11. I'm currently doing my A-Levels; Btec Science, English, geography and history
12. I adore Katy Perry, I think she's a beautiful woman
13. I have lots of opinions, I just don't voice them
14. I would do anything to be slim and pretty
15. I want to go to a Uni in Manchester
16. My favourite holiday was South Africa and I would love to go back
17. I enjoy photography, even if I don't get much of a chance to do it
18. I like writting essays
19. I love Disney
20. I think that Rhinos are cute
21. I want to be a Zoologist and study animal behaviour
22. I'm really pale
23. I love apple crumble, homemade is the best
24. Mint choc chip is my absolute favourite icecream
25. There's only one person who knows be better than anyone, my boyfriend
26. I litterally only trust three people, my parents and my boyfriend
27. I love the smell of shampoo
28. When I was born I had black hair that faded to blonde
29. I love lime milkshake
30. I'm a real romantic

I was such a bitch yesterday. Not even kidding, I was horrible. I'm sorry.

day 05 - a time you thought about ending your own life.

I haven't.

day 04 - your views on religion.



I don't really follow any religion, it's just something I've never done. I respect peoples' religions, its their choice to believe what they believe as long as they don't attempt to force it on to me.

day 04 - your views on religion.

I don't really follow any religion, it's just something I've never done. I respect peoples' religions, its their choice to believe what they believe as long as they don't attempt to force it on to me.

day 03 - your views on drugs and alcohol.



Basically, drugs are wrong. unless its prescribed by a doctor for medical reasons, then it's okay, cause you actually need it. I don't see the point in taking drugs or being "involved" with drugs. All to get "high" but is it really high? Fucking up your body just for a feeling that lasts an hour. Yes, I'm sure you'll be high when you're on your death bed.



Alcohol is okay, in moderation. I suppose if you asked most people they would be up for getting drunk or whatever. I'm not that sort of person, drinking doesnt exactly float my boat. Most teen's would probably be shocked at that. But if i'm completely honest, I'd rather be sat at home cuddled up with my boyfriend and a mug of hot chocolate than out clubbing.

day 02 - where you’d like to be in 10 years.



If you think about it; ten years isn't really that far away, I mean sure it sounds it but by the time I'm out of full-time education it will be almost four years, plus six is ten.



So, I guess in ten years, I would like to have my degree in Zoology, be working in a Zoo or animal conversation/park. I would want to be married, not a huge wedding but not a small one either - with a white dress and look all pretty. A house, for my husband and I, and our children, maybe one or two, no more than three. Lots of land/garden for some dogs, preferably Labradors - such beautiful dogs. Space in my house for guests to come and stay, i.e. my family and his. Somewhere not completely rural but not a city, thats no place to bring up children.

I just want to be happy.

day 01 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Well what can I say, you already know about my relationship if you've read my posts before. I'm dating the most perfect man on earth, we've been together ten months and seven days. It had litterally been the best time of my life. He cares about me so much, knows how to deal with my "down" days and actually listens to what I have to say. You don't often come across a real man, I mean every man is real. But the ones that make you feel like you're the only person that matters, you don't get many of those. It's unexplanable. When I'm with him, and its just us, nothing seems to matter, if somethings bothering me, it doesnt anymore. He just seems to make me melt into this carefree girl. I love that feeling. Sometimes we just sit and talk for hours, sometimes just about stupid pointless things, but thats what matters, we never run out of anything to say. theres no awkwardness. Take the other day as an example; I was upset about a few things and he pestered me to tell him, even when i started to cry he just held me, reassured me and told me he loved me. That is really all I needed, his love. Everytime he tells me he loves me its like a wave of happiness just hits me, and i get all tingley and my tummy fills with butterflies. I remember the day I brought up the courage to tell him I liked him. I was terrified he'd knock me back. Oh boy was it worth it.

I can honestly say that I'm in love with him.

I'm going to try and do this...

day 01 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
day 02 - where you’d like to be in 10 years.
day 03 - your views on drugs and alcohol.
day 04 - your views on religion.
day 05 - a time you thought about ending your own life.
day 06 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
day 07 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
day 08 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
day 09 - how you hope your future will be like.
day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss.
day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
day 12 - bullet your whole day.
day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
day 14 - your earliest memory.
day 15 - your favorite tumblrs.
day 16 - your views on mainstream music.
day 17 - your highs and lows of this past year.
day 18 - your beliefs.
day 19 - disrespecting your parents.
day 20 - how important you think education is.
day 21 - one of your favorite shows.
day 22 - how have you changed in the past 2 years?
day 23 - give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
day 24 - your favorite movie and what it’s about.
day 25 - someone who fascinates you and why.
day 26 - what kind of person attracts you.
day 27 - a problem that you have had.
day 28 - something that you miss.
day 29 - goals for the next 30 days.
day 30 - your highs and lows of this month

Nothing's ever easy, I should know that by now.

Tomorrow is going to kill me; emotionally and physically.

I can just tell.

I'm tired of worrying too...

No, I don't and I hate it...

onomnomnom

It's monday, and I'm stupidly tired.

I wish I was her, beautiful hair, a nice slim tanned figure and can pull off short outfits. I'm the opposite, short stupid hair, pale overly curvy body and can definately not pull anything short off.

She's a goddess and I love her

my gorgeous boy <3

it's much more perfect in real life

I want to do this...

lols

i have this fear

love this film

i never want to go back there.

today is possibly the worst day of my life.

i dont want to talk to anyone.

just curl up in a ball and sob myself to sleep.

I've come to the conclsion, i shouldnt put myself through the process of making friends. they become dicks and hurt you.

I was on such a high until people like you tore me down. I cannot be bothered with you anymore, all you seem to do is annoy and upset me. I'm happy with my boyfriend and my family, they are all I need.

To one person in particular. You make up lies and hurt people. I thought you were better than that, obviously I was wrong. Wrong about you, wrong about the way you treat people and wrong about the way you actually feel. Do you actually like your "friends" or are they actually below you, 'cause you're just the most amazing person ever aren't you? Don't try and be friendly to me, I can't be bothered with all your crap. I'm done.

"standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your hearts out"

I honestly don't think you'd wanna know what I'm thinking right now

wish i could predict my moods. it would make my life so much easier, rather being stuck like this.