...i have a lot to do today, but i realised i hadn’t written since Tuesday last week, sozzzzz.
Basically from Thursday to Tuesday - the best 6 days <33333
Actually don’t have time,
Ciao ox
Thursday, 22 July 2010
Tuesday, 13 July 2010
well well..
As i said in my last blog, i would feel better next time i write - and i do.
I deactivated my Twitter account and also my dA account. I'm glad i did, although i had some of my good friends on there it was pointless me having them. dA i barely used, so deleting it really didn’t change much, as for twitter, recently i had just been putting a load of crap on there anyway, and re-reading it made me sound like some pathetic child. And i don’t want to create that impression, maybe i will re-join again one day, but not any time soon. I have a lot going on in the next few months and i just need to get on with my life rather than being dependant on some website. HAH, what am i doing on here then?
Although I hate change strongly, i am making some changes to myself. Losing weight, going to the gym more and working off all the calories that i desperately need to lose. I went yesterday - to the gym. and i was on the treadmill with my iPod blasting some Fightstar <3 and some man walked in, in what looked like stripy pyjama bottoms, and then he got on the treadmill next to me, and went straight onto speed 9.7 - a very fast run. Me being me got competitive and sped mine up a little. Then Lady Gaga came on my iPod which sent me into some madness so i sped the treadmill up even more so i was doing some very fast power walk. I ended up being on the treadmill for 10 minutes more than i had planned because of Lady Gaga and Stripy. Thanks, i actually needed that!
So in two days i'll be going to see JLS <3 eeee! I’m actually so excited. and i'm so tempted to make a banner saying 'i love you JB!' but i think my boyfriend might have something to say about it seeing as he'll be with me. hah. I hope it’s sunny, or at least dry and warm. Its gonna be so amazing.
"You're all that matters to me, the ground that you walk on, the air that you breathe, someday you'll discover i don’t want no other, believe me" - Curtis Stigers <3
Ciao ox
I deactivated my Twitter account and also my dA account. I'm glad i did, although i had some of my good friends on there it was pointless me having them. dA i barely used, so deleting it really didn’t change much, as for twitter, recently i had just been putting a load of crap on there anyway, and re-reading it made me sound like some pathetic child. And i don’t want to create that impression, maybe i will re-join again one day, but not any time soon. I have a lot going on in the next few months and i just need to get on with my life rather than being dependant on some website. HAH, what am i doing on here then?
Although I hate change strongly, i am making some changes to myself. Losing weight, going to the gym more and working off all the calories that i desperately need to lose. I went yesterday - to the gym. and i was on the treadmill with my iPod blasting some Fightstar <3 and some man walked in, in what looked like stripy pyjama bottoms, and then he got on the treadmill next to me, and went straight onto speed 9.7 - a very fast run. Me being me got competitive and sped mine up a little. Then Lady Gaga came on my iPod which sent me into some madness so i sped the treadmill up even more so i was doing some very fast power walk. I ended up being on the treadmill for 10 minutes more than i had planned because of Lady Gaga and Stripy. Thanks, i actually needed that!
So in two days i'll be going to see JLS <3 eeee! I’m actually so excited. and i'm so tempted to make a banner saying 'i love you JB!' but i think my boyfriend might have something to say about it seeing as he'll be with me. hah. I hope it’s sunny, or at least dry and warm. Its gonna be so amazing.
"You're all that matters to me, the ground that you walk on, the air that you breathe, someday you'll discover i don’t want no other, believe me" - Curtis Stigers <3
Ciao ox
Monday, 12 July 2010
change...
...i hate change.
Over the past couple of days i have actually come to terms with the fact i think i have some mental problem. I haven’t been sleeping well at all, i'm stressy, i cry too much in unusual situations/places, i have serious mood swings... and well i fucked my body up. Yeah. I’m not fricken normal am i?
Please, ignore me. ima stupid bitch that is just upset. i'll be okay once i hit the gym in about an hour.
you see, i like routine, everything in its place so i know where my head and heart are at. i guess that’s the little sort of OCD thing, you know, cos everyone has something like that right? okay, i'm desperately trying to reassure myself that nothing will change, i just can’t do it. i can’t deal with change. it takes me too long to re-adjust after.
Saturday was a weird day. i won’t fill you in with what exactly happened. but... i ended up crying in a field. classy, i know. i don’t think i had ever been so scared and terrified in my life, and don’t worry, it wasn’t about anything serious, well not serious to you anyway. but yeah, i needed reassurance. which i didn’t get until i called him. and i heard the words "i love you" and i was happy again. just so you know, it was all in my head, there was nothing wrong in our relationship.
gonna get ready for the gym,
kthxbai
Over the past couple of days i have actually come to terms with the fact i think i have some mental problem. I haven’t been sleeping well at all, i'm stressy, i cry too much in unusual situations/places, i have serious mood swings... and well i fucked my body up. Yeah. I’m not fricken normal am i?
Please, ignore me. ima stupid bitch that is just upset. i'll be okay once i hit the gym in about an hour.
you see, i like routine, everything in its place so i know where my head and heart are at. i guess that’s the little sort of OCD thing, you know, cos everyone has something like that right? okay, i'm desperately trying to reassure myself that nothing will change, i just can’t do it. i can’t deal with change. it takes me too long to re-adjust after.
Saturday was a weird day. i won’t fill you in with what exactly happened. but... i ended up crying in a field. classy, i know. i don’t think i had ever been so scared and terrified in my life, and don’t worry, it wasn’t about anything serious, well not serious to you anyway. but yeah, i needed reassurance. which i didn’t get until i called him. and i heard the words "i love you" and i was happy again. just so you know, it was all in my head, there was nothing wrong in our relationship.
gonna get ready for the gym,
kthxbai
Thursday, 8 July 2010
woah
So much has happened since i last wrote; this could end up being a long blog - if i have the energy to write it. I'll fill you in on the big things that have happened; i don’t think i have enough energy to write everything. So here it goes...
On Monday (5th July) I left school, forever. It’s kind of weird thinking about it; I’ve been going to school for 11 years, since year 5, and now it’s all over. It almost feels like i should be going back in September for another year. Instead i will be attending the sixth form, where i will study; English Lit, Geography, History and Btec Science. I'm looking forward to it, but i know this will require a lot of work. But first, I have a summer to look forward to, well, I have already started to enjoy it, despite having no full days to just relax, i always have something on, usually work.
Work can be a drag, i'm not gonna lie. I think its cos i'm not really interested in cards. And well, when you work a two hour shift in the quietest part of the day, it tends to become tedious. I usually spend half the shift hovering and tidying up. I know it sounds easy, but it’s so boring. On the other hand, i really do count myself lucky, that i have a job and i have money coming in.
With the money I get from work I want to buy driving lessons, clothes, and a holiday somewhere hot. shiiiit. i need more money. well i should be getting some back from my mum as she is paying for my hair, nails and eyebrows for prom...
Prom. Well, it was so good. I'm not gonna lie, the music wasn’t brilliant. but just everyone looked amazing. We all had such a great night, dancing and laughing...or laughing at the dancing! I don’t really know what else to say about it, except Prom king and Prom queen were quite obvious.
It’s the 8th today isn't it? *looks at calendar* eeeeeeee! that means me and my boyfriend have been together 7 months. i love you boyyyyyy! <3
Might go back to bed,
ciao ox
On Monday (5th July) I left school, forever. It’s kind of weird thinking about it; I’ve been going to school for 11 years, since year 5, and now it’s all over. It almost feels like i should be going back in September for another year. Instead i will be attending the sixth form, where i will study; English Lit, Geography, History and Btec Science. I'm looking forward to it, but i know this will require a lot of work. But first, I have a summer to look forward to, well, I have already started to enjoy it, despite having no full days to just relax, i always have something on, usually work.
Work can be a drag, i'm not gonna lie. I think its cos i'm not really interested in cards. And well, when you work a two hour shift in the quietest part of the day, it tends to become tedious. I usually spend half the shift hovering and tidying up. I know it sounds easy, but it’s so boring. On the other hand, i really do count myself lucky, that i have a job and i have money coming in.
With the money I get from work I want to buy driving lessons, clothes, and a holiday somewhere hot. shiiiit. i need more money. well i should be getting some back from my mum as she is paying for my hair, nails and eyebrows for prom...
Prom. Well, it was so good. I'm not gonna lie, the music wasn’t brilliant. but just everyone looked amazing. We all had such a great night, dancing and laughing...or laughing at the dancing! I don’t really know what else to say about it, except Prom king and Prom queen were quite obvious.
It’s the 8th today isn't it? *looks at calendar* eeeeeeee! that means me and my boyfriend have been together 7 months. i love you boyyyyyy! <3
Might go back to bed,
ciao ox
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