wow!

The title of the blog is my mood right now, for some bad reasons, but mainly good.

I really don’t know what happened to me yesterday, i was completely fine until i guess it was midday, i got more than a little upset with everything, mainly myself. I managed to convince myself that i had done something terribly wrong, and messed everything up. i looked at old texts and things that i thought would cheer me up, no, i was wrong it made me worse, i was crying so much and i felt awful. I don’t know what came over me, after an hour or so after that i was completely fine again, as if nothing had happened. I’ve had a lot of mood swings this week, but nothing as bad as that before, it was like i had gone mad. Luckily it was only me in the house to see it.

That’s enough bad stuff...here's the good...

I went to my bestfriends dad's 50th birthday party last night, no it wasn’t boring, the opposite actually. It was me, my two bestfriends, my bestfriends friend, my boyfriend, and later came my boyfriends mum and sister, and my two best friend’s mums. We had a right laugh, lots of wine and beer later. I had a little Rose, but i didn’t like it much. I stayed with the adults i suppose while the other girls were looking out for the "hot" drummer. In my opinion, he was ugly. And i'm not just saying that because i have a boyfriend, i generally mean it. And he smoked as well, eurgh. We were having a right laugh, my boyfriends mum and one of my bestfriends mum were off talking to other people at the time. And my boyfriend’s sister made a comment that if I and my boyfriend ever broke up she would break his legs. A bit drastic i know, but she had had a lot of wine, and she's a little protective over me i guess, it’s because she thinks of me as a sister now, well so she said. She keeps telling me i'm her sister, which is absolutely lovely. i love fitting in with their family, as his sister described it last night "you're practically family" oh it makes me so happy to hear things like that. When the DJ was playing Bon Jovi- Livin' on a Prayer we all had to go and dance, and sing along to it. One of the lines in the song is 'Take my hand we'll make it - i swear' and my boyfriend held his hand out for me and i was like awww. He’s so cute. He was dancing with me to dancing queen too. Good bit of ABBA. Then i encouraged one of my bestfriends to go talk to her childhood sweetheart from when she was four, they were talking for ages. Me and my boyfriend left and went back to mine. We watched some telly downstairs and curled up on the sofa, and he said to me "I’ve got some bad news for you, looks like you’re stuck with me forever, or i get my legs broken" and i told him that that wasn’t bad news to me. And i said to him "i feel sorry for you, you’re stuck with me" and he said "i would have it any other way" awwww <3 made me so happy!


I'm probably boring you,
So ciao ox